Hm..

Mood: heart ache.. helpless..

I've told Quan not to get involved in SC stuff anymore,
maybe i just can't totally get out of it,
and now,
i'm making myself very worried bout things i shouldn't be..
i should noe that i've stepped down,
and i should noe that i need to focus in my studies,
after all,
this is a one-way ticket,
i have no other choices but to carry on,
i cannot choose to U-turn,
it would mean a lot of money for my studies..
i should concentrate and focus..
i noe i need to,
but it's hard..

i was deleting messages this afternoon,
it was like 1600+ msgs in my phone's inbox..
i cannot select all and delete,
thus i need to manually delete one-by-one..
and in fact,
it's tiring..
and i read thru those msgs before i delete,
some funny stuffs i sms-ed my frens came back,
those memories,
it just came back..
even if the lamest sms,
it still made me smile..
it's been quite a while since i talk to u..
i'm scared,
coz i dun noe wat u thinking..
and apparently a lot of things cocked up..
i dunno what i should do,
and maybe thinking i'm taking sides..
i heard from both sides,
and i really dunno wat to do..
coz u r still my buddy,
i can't ask u not to get angry,
and i can't really help to solve it,
and now,
it's just making things worse..
and i really hope,
after all,
our frenship will remain..
that's all i really hope,
and that's wat i am praying so hard now..
i'm affected,
and i noe,
it's unavoidable..
i'm sorry if i had in a way or other hurt u,
sorry..


I hope i would be able to drink some alcohol,
to take away all those stress..
i didn't noe how to react,
and i really need alcohol..
Cheers..!!!