Tml..

Tomorrow, Tomorrow and Tomorrow..
It was like so many tomorrow since i came back Sg.
Nothing much i have done for Student Council.
Juz went for the Recee to Sentosa
It was Fun,
so many councilors gather once again,
with april and ying chen absent,
but still,
we have a mischievous boy,
named Bing,
Lilan's younger brother.
The Sentosa trip was fun,
really,
never had such huge outing since very very long ago.
i miss school trips.
i miss everyone
i miss ... u~
whoever u r reading my blog xD

i think i should blog more,
coz,
i dun think i have the time hang out in MSN telling every1 my stuff.
and,
life gonna b busy..
and,
this is the way i can update my frens xD
i noe they miss me,
and i miss u all lotz too..
I apologise,
for not calling u all,
for not talking through phone with u all,
for unable to meet u all up,
for a lot of promises i can't keep up,
but this one is for real,
friendship forever.
dun ever lose hope in our frenship,
k?
no matter how busy i am,
ask me out one day,
slap me on my face,
even if i have a girl friend,
do it in front of her,
i dun mind,
coz,
Friends Forever.
U juz need to say this while slapping my face.

I made promise with my brother also,
that we r the onli brothers,
that we wun fight over money,
over property,
over anything.
No matter wat,
we r still brothers,
forever and ever.

Tomolo,
moving to new hostel.
Wonder,
what would happen in that hostel.
Mayb, it wun be a hostel.
it's juz a place to sleep.
Nothing more than that,
not worth,
in our memory.

I've already complain so much.
I wonder,
those who r in those freaking rich family,
how would they bare this.
No aircon,
haha, those little princes and princesses
will gonna suffer ><
aihz,
wat i worried,
is not the curfew,
neither is the rules,
but i really hope,
Rudy,
will be my roommate,
juz for this year.
But anyway,
we promised,
we will be frens forever.
I juz hope,
we could stay in a same room together!!
playing games as we wish.
I miz u man, Rud!!

Come back early,
please, please,
let me be in the same room as Rudy,
Please..
Please..

WHAT A DAY

It was a good day from the start,
how could it end this way... RETARD

Stupid PH,
Why they build this idiotic building in the first place?
Luckily i visited this stupid PRISON first,
if not,
i will be like an idiot,
moving all my stuff and not being able to check in the hostel.

Who are u to scold me?
"You dun have the right to ask"
You are juz a guard, biatch.
huh?
i dun have the right to ask?
i'm a border,
i'm juz asking when can i move in..
can i move in tml?
that's all,
u said i cannot ask anything after curfew
and u ask me to come and ask the next day?
wat if i come with all my stuffs?
will u let me in?

"You need black and white to check in"
ya, i understand u,
but wat if i dun have a place to stay?
can u juz b a bit HUMAN?
u r juz as cruel as animals.
What kind of place is it?
huh?
we r not prisoner.
we r juz student,
and u can treat us like tat?

talking a phone with my teacher mentor also cannot
and u chase me out with
" U can talk outside the gate!"
you call this a hostel?
this is like a place to keep the prisoner,
no love
no care
juz demands
and u call this a hostel?

Forget it,
tat'll be juz a place to stay.
PH?
forget it.
the ppl inside,
u'll nv be respected.
boastful as u can be..
i'm very upset with this arrangement
wat a stupid hall to stay in..

juz hope that this hall dun give me freaking troubles.
SIEN!!!!

Thanks..

Thanks for everything..
I'm really glad..
I'm very happy..

Thanks Rudy,
for being such a good buddy,
which i never ever had.
You know when to hold me back when i lose myself.
You know what to tell me when i'm down.
You are always there for me.

It's been a year,
to be accurate 9 months,
since we started to be buddies.
It was tough,
Yet, we believe in each other,
Thanks for the vacation.
Spending my holidays with u is just so fun.
Thanks for bringing so much laughter,
to my family members,
and also me.
And in Bandung,
You never forget to translate everything to me.
You were the first friend whom allows me to take a FLIGHT.

The 1st flight was scary,
yet, you were there!
The lightning,
ouch!
But the 2nd flight,
I was all alone,
in a 3-seated row.
All alone,
And i have to bite my own lips all the time.
I was scared,
but yet,
I learn to trust,
trust what you say,
and trust the pilot.
Coz, we all wanna be alive!

Anyway,
feel kinda lost and empty..
Like i've lost a limb,
and i've lost so much laughter.
You are really great, Rudy!
Thanks!!
Miss ya lotz, buddy!!
Hope to see you soon!!

不负责任

我真的不懂要对你说些什么了。
我很失望。
你为了你长期的病，
搞得如此？
有病就大力啊？
有病就有特权？
我觉得可笑。
什么？
我想，
那个任务，
不是委派的。
然后？
你自己却参与了。
那就为它，
付出到底。
就算你不想参与的，
看见你的战友，
拼了死命，
你却活在你自己的世界？
可笑！
我对你太失望了。
你的好印象，
在我的心里已彻底，
彻底地被打碎了。

你不要参与，
就不应该接受啊！
所以，
你现在已经在里面了，
朋友们做到晚上9点，
他们都没埋怨。
你呢？
你却说要活在自己世界。
2，3点，
就已脱离他们，
让他们帮你做你应该做的东西。
你呢？
你却在房间看戏！
还嘻嘻哈哈笑得那么大声。
朋友们在忙着做，
你呢？
你在那里玩dotA？
可笑。
真的可笑。

今天，
他们到外去继续做，
你呢？
你却说要去医院。
可能去医院是借口。
听说，
你还去看戏呢！
可笑。
你自己应该反省。
管你拿了什么奖项，
可能，
全都是伪造出来的。
你，
想想吧！
病？
可能，
我们就是不懂你要什么。
你如果觉得如此是最好的，
你就作吧!
你说你找到朋友？
哈哈，
那天，
你这么生气，
他有追着你吗？
这种朋友，
你也要啊？
好笑！
可能，
你的朋友就是拿来利用罢了。
你好自为之。

可笑。

我觉得很可笑。
哈哈……
他又写了部落各。
说自己在考试中做得很好。
好，
当然啦，
他比我们每个人多读一年。

什么？
人家去讲堂上课，
而且老师是巩固我们的写作方法，
并没所谓的泄题，
他没去，
但又说我们很不诚实，
需要老师的点子，
才能做得好，
并且因为自己能够写得很多而光荣。
也许，你真的做得很好，
但，
你不需这样自夸，
老师并没给我们任何提示，
你这么一说，
简直就在贱踏我们到讲堂的人，
你没去，
也不需那样说别人吧！
可怜，
我为你觉得可怜。
我越来越失望。
我还以为，
你会在病魔抗斗时，
变得更坚强，
但，
你没有！！！

你说你的分数肯定赢别人，
而且，人家会在拿成绩时，
大吵大闹，
为何你能够获取这种成绩。
我觉得可笑。
你说你不在意分数，
但你却要以分数赢人家。
分数真的需要在乎那么多吗？
就算你考得100分，
就算你赢了全世界的人，
那又怎样？
你的人格，
会使你的失败。
你，
会彻底的失败。

人，需要那么现实吗？
人，不能退一步吗?
人，不能够比较体谅吗？
好心，
你能够成长吗？
我对你简直就是失望到无话可说的地步。

怕输？

读了他的部落个，
越想越不对劲。
曾经，
他说我的部落各写得很伤人。
但，
我却觉得，
他的部落各甚至有人身攻击。
现在想起来，
还蛮真可笑。
我，
之前还觉得他改变了。
觉得自己依然却没有进步。
他却变得很体贴，
很懂事。
但，
日子久了。
我却认为，
他的旧病复发。
反而，
我觉得自己没变，
也不是一件坏事。
他提到怕输。
试问有谁不怕输。
也许这里的文化，
是出了名怕输的。
但，我觉得，
他们怕输的原因很明显，
很应该。
那天，
你提到他们争先恐后。
在一个清晨，
在未开的一间东西。
试想想，
若你没做了预约，
你会否在那儿和他们一起排队呢？
我觉得你会。
因为，
你的个性，
是怕输的。
是要省时间。
我了解。
但，
你那一提起，
使我觉得你很矛盾。
想说别人，
先了解自己的情况。
可能，
我应该对我自己先说这一句，
但，
我觉得我有资格批评你。
可笑，
真的觉得很可笑。
所以，
不管怎样，
你在我心目中已经大大地打了折扣。
你，
获得了最佳的奖项，
得了许多的赞美，
不代表你很好。
所以，
你的每一句，
在你的部落各，
我依然会读，
还会批评呢。
我觉得很失望，
对你的一举一动，
之前还很尊敬，
现在你却做到这样。
不怕输？
不怕输那你为何每早都要比人先到学校？
那你为何在班上要在老师所完每句话给予批评？
那你为何那么爱多取别人的注意？
那么能够演戏？
我不知道这么一说，
你又会说我说得太过分。
如果，
你有机会到此一游，
先想想你之前的人生攻击，
在生气我的部落各也不迟。
想想吧，
人生短暂。
你与你的朋友，
在考试后炫耀说题目很简单，
说你有很多时间，
说一些伤害人家的话，
你又没有反省过？
可笑，
但，
我知道我不应该批评那么多，
但我实在是忍不住，
你那么的行为，
我真的和失望！！
你，
好好地想想吧！

大考……

唉，
今天的数学，
完蛋了。
27分，
空着，
完了。
只会做31分。
连及格都难。
唉，
放弃了。
而且，
被完全地打败。
完完全全失去信心。
到BurgerKing吃了雪糕，
心情也好多了。
多亏哥哥，
Rudy，
伟桐，
Christabel，
他们的激励，
我才能够，
渐渐，
恢复。
伤心，
也帮不上忙，
为何不为其他的试卷，
多加努力？
所以，
我看透红尘，
为化学，
经济，
物理，
还有华语，
多多加油！！

人家说，
他们能够有多余的一个小时，
我却需要多两个小时。
人家说，
这张纸那么简单，
他要刺激的。
我却连完成都成问题。
我，
现在，
很伤心，
连自己最好的科目，
数学，
现在成了Tragic。
算了吧，
人家可能在笑我，
说我自己数学很好。
可能，我真的很烂吧。
唯有多加努力咯。
加油！！！

年终……

年终终于到了。
期盼已久的？
可以是，
可以不是。

它的到来，
带来了多少的苦恼，
多少的伤感，
多少的忧虑。
它，带来了年终考试，
是升级的考试，
这次若再次失败，
就只好告别狮子了。
多少夜的桌灯陪伴，
多少夜的纸被牺牲，
多少夜难眠的人，
多少夜的惆怅，
多少夜的担心，
多少的苦痛，
是无人可知……
也许，只有自己知道……

我害怕，
明天的大考。
害怕，
自己做不好，
害怕，
知己做不好，
害怕，
省不了级，
害怕，
回去，
害怕，
被人耻笑。
害怕一切……

也许，
这是每个学生都得面对的命运。
我，
为这次的大考，
做不了多少，
我自己知道。
所以，
我担心，
我害怕，
我伤心，
我懊恼。
如果这次做不好，
也是自己的错。
所以，
希望，
这次真的能够考好，
不需要回去，
并且这一个障碍的过去，
就是我们的天地了。
乾坤就由我们掌控。

所以，
大家，
加油，
就熬过这一次的大考。
过后，
就是我们的天堂。
我们要一起熬过，
一起升级，
一起毕业。
朋友，
尤其是我的知己们，
加油，
明年，
我还需要你们，
所以，
你们不可以失败。
因为我不允许你们失败！！！

加油！！！

中秋节……

唉，
八月了。
中秋。
我觉得时间过得好快。
转眼，八个月过去了。
我还记得，
以前的我们，
那几个顽皮的冬瓜，
在中秋时，
去堆积一大堆的燃料，
在夜晚，用土油（Kerosene）把它们给点燃了，
然后快快乐乐地过一晚，
赏月，玩游戏。
此外，还提着灯笼，
到处游荡。
那也是父母比较通融的几次，
平时在太阳还没消失前，
我们都得回家，
冲好凉，等着吃饭。
但，这一切，
都是我们的童年，
我们的回忆。

我想念以前，
不需要烦恼的日子。
现在，
就连每一句话，
我们都得担心它会带来的后果。
长大了，懂事了，
未必是一件好事。
今年我十八岁了。
依据法律，
如果犯下通天大罪，
就会像成人那样被处罚。
也许人生就是这样。

我不想长大，
我不想再眨眼。
一眨眼，十八岁了。
再眨多几下，
人生就应该到了末端。
那时，是离开人世的时候。
我不要离开，
离开后，
我们会去哪里？
我们会再次与朋友见面吗？
我们会怎样？
我们会被永远的遗忘吗？
我不晓得，
也许人生就是这样，
我担心……

我怕这一趟人生，
走得很遗憾。
我不要放弃任何东西，
不到无法挽留的时候，
我都不要放弃。
现在的我很盲目，
像只无头苍蝇，
没有目标。
所以现在，
为能做的事，
就是用功读书，
为自己的未来铺路。
也许，这是我现在唯有能做的事。
还有，我要珍惜身边的人，
伟桐，Rudy，Christabel……
还有许多的朋友，
我珍惜你们，
因为我珍惜我的人生，
没有你们，
日子就不像现在那么的有意义，
那么的美丽。

中秋节，快乐。

他妈的！！！！！

他妈的。
今天的运不懂是什么烂运。
NEWAISA
他那个王八蛋，
说七、八点会回来，
哪里知道，
九点都还没。
他妈的，
我都快要给饿死了。
剩下八分钟，
我就不信他会来得及回来。
我真的很生气他，
非常非常地生气他。
不曾那么其一个朋友。
之前被洗衣服的事业给弄疯了。
人家把我在烘干的衣服给拿出来。
还剩三十分钟，
他妈的，
他竟敢拿我的衣服出来，
还要我浪费多一块钱，
钱不要紧，
但我浪费了多少时间跑上跑下。
鸡蛋糕！
我现在是一肚子的气，
谁来惹我，
谁就死。
我快要崩溃了，实在的！！！！！！！！！！

无话可说

华语可更加表现我想说的……
以后，不必要的时候，
我不用英语，因为，
观看我的部落各的，
只有自己和屈指可数的朋友，
就连我的知己，都不爱看部落各，
所以，
我选择了用华语……

最近，脾气很坏，
也不晓得怎么这么累。
一回到宿舍，
我就躲不开床的引诱。
它，勾引了我，
好让我躺在它，
让我与周公约会。

也许人家觉得是浪费时间，
我还依旧睡、休息，
他们怕输的性格，
对不起，对我完全相反，
我，不是书虫，
更不用说是知识分子，
所以，我觉得我的生活，
依然精彩，
依然有趣，
不像有些人，从头到尾，
担心的是学业。
休息，是为了要走更远的路。
我非常赞同这句话。
现在的我，虽然急得像热锅上的蚂蚁，
但我不会忘记要痛快的玩耍，
痛快地睡觉，
痛快的吃，
痛快地做每种东西，
这样，生活才不会像人家说的那么没生命力……

我，虽然没读到很多书，
我害怕，
害怕自己不能够考取好成绩，
更害怕知己离去，
因为，目前的情况，
他的成绩不是说很好。
我却像泥菩萨过江，
自身难保，
抱歉，知己，
帮不了多少忙，
但，愿你能够，
自己温习，
因为我也在温习，
所以我们彼此向前迈进！
升级考试，我们会打倒你的。

关于这个朋友，
我很心疼，
更无助，
人身攻击，
他做了，
而且做得没有余地，
完全破坏那个人的形象。
我没想到他是这种人，
我有些接受不到，
但，事实就摆在眼前，
不到我不相信……
对不起，朋友，
你这么一做，
在我心里，
已经大大地被打折扣了。
另一个朋友，
今天也令我生气。
他依然那么自私。
读书的时间，
他睡着了，
不用紧……
但他一起来，
便播放音乐，
并且还蛮大声，
气着，我到外面去，
再这样下去，
不晓得我们的日子会是怎样……

伊凡

他今天又再向人投诉我了。
我不晓得。
到底问题出在哪里？
我很生气。
我很激动。
那一夜，我的知己病了。
到我房间来过一晚。
把我们那里的冷气关掉。
我没问过他的允许，
因为我觉得不需要。
他的床，就在另一个冷气的下面。
冷气是直吹他。
而且，我的泰国朋友，
都愿意让位给我，
到隔壁的床去睡。
他第二天，向伟桐投诉。
那还不用紧，他还对我不理不睬。
我，第二天还对他有说有笑，
可不知，他竟然已不爽我了。
无所谓，这还延续了很久。
那是一件很久的事了。
但我们之间的关系，
依然如此的陌生。
我气！
我气他不直截了当告诉我。
我气他，不开风扇，
反而在那里大吵大闹。
我气，因为他怎么可以这样不体谅。
我气，因为我的知己也是他的同乡，
他的朋友，
曾经是他多年的同班同学。
我气，气他怎么可以在夜晚把手机的声量调得那么高。
我气的是，
我们彼此曾称对方为好友，
现在，却如此的尴尬，
曾经，我们夜晚谈心，
现在却连招呼也不打。
我们已沦落到尴尬的地步
可能，已不是尴尬，
反而是憎恨，
我觉得很失败，
不曾真正那么气一个人，
在他乡，
只想好好和人家相处，
但连同房室友，
我都不知该怎么办……
唉……
也许，问题在我这边，
但，我还是很气。
我气他到现在还没和我谈过。
可能已经不需要了。
两个月，
两个月后，我们就不再同房。
我，已经失去了这段友谊，
这个朋友。
我会，试着记得他，
记住不可以在冒犯他。
不需要再加以理睬，
就让这段友谊，走向他的末端。
结束它吧，时间！
珍重，伊凡。
永别……

Holidays

Aiya, this whole holiday, i'm so unproductive.. argh, juz play all day long, nv really study.. OMG? i'm gonna fail my promos and go back to malaysia.. walao.. canot liao leh.. really need to study sia.. left onli 17 days after today.. hm, touched nothing, OMG really screwed up liao my Promo..

Anyway, Christabel's parents came to Sg and gave me SAK KEI MA + TOU SAR PEAH + MANGO + GUAVA~~ Yummy~~ so happy sia, it's like so long nv eat mango liao , but my skill to skin it and slice it is quite sucky, ended up, small pieces of mangoes, but, nvm, IT'S REALLY SWEET~~

haha.. i think this should be a shame thing to say, but i played DIABLO 2 from normal to nightmare to hell now in act 3!! wahaha.. i spent 4 days, and keep dying.. argh, as always, rud is with me.. wah, so i'm nv alone xD and we really had great times, starving ourselves, waking up late, eating biscuits for lunch, and cooking noodles for supper~~!! Fabulous, haha, was hoping to have this kind of fren, and now i have him~~!!

and, hmm, bout the guy in my room, argh, he didn't even turn over when i called his name..!!!! DARN, nvm, anyway, think our problem is really bad, i dunno wat happen, but can he GOD DAMN SWITCH HIS PHONE TO SILENT MODE AT NITE? IT IS FREAKING LOUD!!!! darn.. nvm, forget it, he ask us to keep quiet when he wanna sleep, but can he juz try to shut his freaking phone up? argh... and u noe wat? he make stupid noise when people wanna rest.. DARN A**H**E.. nvm, juz bare with it.. left a few months nia.. YEAH a few months.. hmm..

OH YA NEED TO STUDY LIAO LA... keep playing.. aihz, better get going.. JIA YOU!!!

LaLa

Lalala.. Once again, so happy, can blog =)
hm.. last nite, eesh, he switched on the air-con.. and i am having a runny nose, so darn uncomfortable.. i purposely switched on his air con but u noe wat? he switched it off and turn on mine.. WAT DA??? darn him...
eeesh.. today, went school for PW.. i think it's a waste of time coz my group practically did nothing.. aihz.. so sad.. and played diablo then entire day.. guess i need to start studying liao!!!

Day Without Council Badge

i was supposed to get a council badge from mr lim today, but he took mc today... hmm.. quite sad case, coz i was preparing myself to get a bad scold from him but in the end, he's absent.. so sad.. without council badge, i feel ashame now.. really.. i juz feel uneasy bout it, and i'm pretty upset without it as it feels like a disgrace.. x.x

and, the stress are piling up.. argh, really very tired, and econs haven't study, gp, gone case summo, and it's like nvm, fine, i really dunno wat to say rite now, but realy blur and i dunno wat to do now. My eom is another piece of shit, which i haven't finish doing it, has met the dateline long long time ago i set for myself.. Argh... i really can barely breathe.. i feel like giving up.. now, i noe why did rj cry, and y did i cry, i dunno, i think i juz can't take it any longer, pls kill me... coz i'm like dunno wat i am doing.. even this blog, i'm typing with a freaking bad mood, and i'm juz so damn tired... ARGH tml still got rehearsal, this will drain me like shit leh.. argh.....

anyway, 1 good news was i got consolation prize for chinese essay competition.. xD
that's all.. my life is freaking darn busy rite now..

T.T

Argh.. Dying soon... argh.. gonna face one more hectic week.. hmmm.. STRESSED a.. T.T i juz feel like killing myself.. haiz.. tml, need to go school early for Chem Lecture, and later after school, should have council TDC celebration.. haihz.. and after that got movie screening.. that means i got no time for my ECONS and GP test for the next day.. so, i'm GG.. aihz.. HELP ME LEH... dunno wat to do, to sleep now or wat? aihz... my EoM not done, and i hope to make improvements by this Friday, but it seems i have no time if i dun do now.. and, i'm kinda suffocating now.. ARGH.. ><

Teacher's Day Celebration, we have done almost all we can, maybe, we can improve more, bits by bits, but i can see, a lot of us are quite stressed out.. hmm.. and, i really hope tat everything will be juz fine that day.. we want it a success.. so please, make it a success.. we have done our best!! Jia you!!

hmm.. lots of budget proposal and budget expenditure haven't done... argh.. how ar? hmm.. my gp and econs test also.. ARGH.. Tues got rehearsal summo, and wed got meeting, thursday for all of us to calm down and friday, all we had prepared will be revealed. I dunno whether this feeling is worried, or is it scared or is it complacent, but if i dun let myself release, i may have died due to stress.. i juz dunno what to say, and i dunno who i can hang on rite now, mayb Rud? hmm.. kinda tired, how tat everything will be juz fine, really.. and there goes the 10th week of term three... And promos coming soon.. and i have not study anything.. aihz.. HOW? i failed my maths, and it's kinda demoralising.. never fail my maths before leh.. or should i say never get other grades except for A, now, i failed.. juz suddenly lost hope on my maths...

Luckily for WR, our group did quite well and nothing much need to be done, so, tat's quite a relief.. hmm.. argh... REALLY REALLY HOPE EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRITE... hmm... need to rest well for this coming week, really... Jiayou to myself !!

Food...

Hmm.. i missed BA KUA!! hm.. finally got to eat bakua after like so long... hehe, today, i ate xD so happy YUM YUM~~

hmm.. i miss lotz of food in msia leh.. hmm.. CENDOL and KONG PIANG from my hometown.. wah, dam nice leh.. hmm and penang CHAR KUAY TEOW with DUCK EGG... OMG it's really HEAVEN.. hmm.. i miss the food in msia T.T

hmm..

hmm.. got his wallet back.. Damn "Heng" a.. haha.. so happy, but so damn tired.. T.T aihz.. hmm..
Nothing much happen in school, juz had PE which i think is quite fun x) and i like PE so much, anyway, my class is playing Tchuok Ball!! hehe, quite a nice game, can go search in da net xD erm, it's quite fun, and it's a new game, i enjoy it lotz~~

TDA meeting, hmmm.. and oh ya, QingWei owe me the budget proposal.. >.<" everyone is like so damn busy but i'm alwiz like lost, or mayb, i juz dunno where to extend my hand to help.. argh.. dunno a.. How?? hmm... i feel very lost when seeing they all so busy and me doing nothing.. i feel guilty leh.. and summo RJ say i cannot tumble .. HUH? hmm.. maybe, i'm one of the survival? hmm.. wonder wat's going on... hmm.. i juz hope, i can at least do my very best to help everyone in TDA~~ TDA jia you!!

OH ya, got back my GP paper 2 Test already.. aihz, as expected FAILED~~ T.T wat to do.. my vocab damn sucky, and we need to paraphase and i dunno how to change a lot of words.. Like POWER, wat can we change it to?? aihz.. nvm lor.. work harder lor.. wonder what would ms amy chiew will say when we meet for consultation.. T.T coz i didn't read any newspaper but i did promise her i will start it.. ARGH this busy lifestyle is KILLING ME!!!!!

aihz.. WALLET, LOST

aihz, i oso dunno what happened to him, everytime so careless la my this buddy... eesh, he left his wallet in the bus and now very helpless coz duno wat to do.. i oso dunno wat to do.. juz hope tat we are able to get it back tml.. Please return to him whoever found it.. aihz.. so many important personal stuff are in inside.. >.< aihz... so helpless.. but i have a feeling we will get it back, hope it's true.. hope he learn from his mistake too !!

Mua 1st Blog ><

hmm.. finally got my own blog.. and i'm quite satisfied with it =)

oh ya, happy birthday Kaizia~~ i'm so sorry that i forgot bout ur birthday... sorry.. thousand apologies.. and same goes to Zhi Han, sorry.. sorry.. erm i am really sorry bout that T.T anyway, Happy Birthday to u two~~

Juz some update bout myself.. hmm.. recently, i'm very busy.. or mayb i act as though i am busy.. hmm.. not sure what it is. sometimes, i juz can't breathe.. all eyes are on me and of coz the pressures are there.. sometimes i feel like giving up everything and say " Hey, what's all these for huh? Being so busy, does it really worth it when u dun get wat u wan??" mayb, it's not bout the result, it's the process getting to the result.. No matter what result u get, as long as u had worked hard for it, that's it, no regret, that's how i feel..

Anyway, everything's fine here.. and i am happy here, really do feel happy being here.. Stress? hmm.. everyone faces it but it's how u handle it, ya, true, sometimes we may get so tensed up until we lose ourselves, but believe in urself and believe in those staying by u~~ they are those who get u back to path when u r so lost~~ I have mine, do u have urs? =) My buddy's here always, guiding me when i'm so lost and i'm so proud of him~~ Thanx Rudy!! Love ya lots, buddy..

Homework, hmm.. piling up.. i think i'm juz to lazy to touch them.. haha blame no one of coz xD and, i will settle them before PROMO EXAM..hmm.. counting down, it's around 30+ days, hmm.. better work hard for all of the subjects.. and need to settle everything by then.. I DUN WANNA LOSE MY SCHOLARSHIP XD.. jia you all!! i'll work hard, so do u guys~~

should be time to sign off.. tired.. after a few days of relax thru games.. xD and, another week is ahead, get prepared and DASH~!!