Orientation.. The past and present..

Juz went for orientation 2010..
was not as good as it was during our batch,
complained a lot,
but i should noe that every1 has given their bestest,
so,
i shall learn to accept it,
no matter how much flaw it has,
no matter how many mistakes there are,
at least,
it is successful,
and AAR will help to really make them realise things are different..

Thinking back,
Orientation was a blast during our year,
we had this mindset,
everything is for the school..
Things maybe different now,
Weird arrangements,
and a lot of unexpected things..
We love the school,
Orientation was with objectives like,
School Bonding,
Class Bonding,
and Enjoying..
We had achieved those i believe,
and seeing this orientation,
i could only sigh..

Things happen,
people are getting so selfish,
they do things for their own,
they make things happen for their own benefit..
and many many more..
Thinking back,
we were in good terms with HE..
and now,
problems created out of tiny mini things,
juz coz of sides we took,
ended up,
we are really,
nothing but stranger..
It make me think that there are more than one reason behind it..
and i still do not understand it happened,
guess u r juz too ashamed to befren me anymore,
guess u regretted watever happened...

I always believe in equivalent trade,
being fatalistic,
yet optimistic and really,
things will be much different..
I lost u,
but i got a buddy back,
instead,
i hope this bond is forged even stronger..
Losing u,
gaining another one,
it's always a trade..
I lost things recently,
i think it's fated,
and i really am fine with it,
coz these are still things im able to buy,
im able to sacrifice,
able to regain..
i wan these important things of mine,
to really stay on with me..
i really hope,
i could really change a little bit,
at least to each and everyone in my circle of life..
I do my best,
juz to cheer things up,
juz to make everyone around me happy..
Im really doing my best already,
even if it takes my energy,
even if it makes me tired,
yet,
i will sit down and be happy that what had happened.
Guess loving what im doing is what's most important.
and i noe im loving my life,
i noe i love wat im doing,
and im putting my effort in it.
i hope everything will be fine,
and really i wish everything will be fine for everyone..

Thinking,
my birthday is coming.
I noe it's very near,
counting down it's like 8 days.
and i noe im not gonna say anything..
saying that i have no expectation is obviously fake.
coz i nv had the birthday i would love to have.
dreaming that kind of birthday ever since i was young,
and i noe this year,
it will not be achieved,
as im working..
and my birthday,
will end up in a tired working day..
nothing else..
a lot of things in my mind that i wana buy,
but then again,
i noe i shd not hope for anything,
and earn myself the money for these things,
that will be my goal while im working..
i hope things turn well
and carry on as it shd be..
i love my life..