Awesome

Awesome,
like really,
this is the 1st time i ever felt this way.
Awesome, =)
thanks to u xD

LOL,
this was once and the only time i had felt this way.
i really am speechless,
and im numb,
that's wat i feel now =)

All i could blame is myself,
whoelse?
xD
not u,
like DUH??
u r like completely,
correct.

From the start,
getting close to u,
was an epic wrong move.
thinking back,
i've so controlled ur life.
No church,
No band,
nothing else,
but juz u and me.

Today,
i understand how it feels for u,
and i understand how it feels being betrayed.

Thanks for the awesome mid nite,
that i could not sleep when i got on the next day.
which is like AWESOME to the MAX..
xD

i wonder,
all the things we had done,
u done it all with force from me.
IM SO SORRY to make u do things u nv liked.
IM SO SORRY for making u do things i like.
IM SO SORRY for fucking ur life up.

Today,
it's pay back time =)
yup,
u did an awesome job =)
ya
i appreciate it though =)

All these times,
u nv visited my blog,
u nv knew how i feel,
u nv knew who u r to me..
Today,
im telling u all here=)
in my blog.

ok,
to tell u the truth,
i felt very belong to u,
as a buddy,
i dun mind sacrificing my life for u,
tat's wat i believe,
even my life i could give,
what else could i not.
Today, i feel so dumb,
being deceived like totally..

Coz of love,
u betrayed me.
For watever i told u,
it was only meant for u,
what did u fucking do?
tell me?
u told the other person.
and thanks man,
u juz made a confirm stand to the rest of the world,
that i am ......
im really speechless,
even if i really am,
u dun need to do this.
U NOE SHE GOT A BLOODY BIG MOUTH,
U NOE SHE AND I ARE NOT IN BLOODY GOOD TERMS,
if u had fucking decided,
then go ahead,
fuck u for being so selfish and greedy,
FUCK U IDIOT
u wan both things best to u,
wat bout me?
wat bout the other person?
are u fair towards us??

yea,
u have decided,
then go ur path,
i will drift,
dun fucking let me live in hope,
wat hope u gave me ?
it's all ruined,
it's all unachivable.
wat u gave was juz false hope.
u said everything will be better
but u juz made it worse
and u noe wat?
the best thing is u FUCKING RUIN MY REPUTATION.
thanks man..

Maybe,
we are juz different world,
that couldn't be wat we promised,
it's destined,
for u to come in,
fake everything,
and fucking betray me =)
yup,
awesome,
screw my life.. xD