My 2nd Departure

I wonder,
this time,
how will i be..
In fact,
i know i will break down totally..

Im sad,
to leave this place,
even though the stress,
even though the sucky hostel,
even though the depression i felt,
even all the bad things happening over here..
i am sad to leave..

Thinking of it,
Some has left,
some haven't..
And next would be me..

im gonna miss all the times in Singapore..
"They are gonna ostracize you"
that's wat my senior told me bout singaporean..
But in fact,
i nv even encounter it at all..
And i noe,
all i have over here is,
my foreign frens..
Not my parents,
not my hometown frens,
just all my new frens..

Sometimes,
thinking back,
i regret,
for not doing some of the things i could have done better,
for some of the things i ignored coz of my tiredness..
Im sorry if i hadn't put in my best-est effort,
but really,
i regret..

Recently,
the saddest thing for me,
is,
my class,
Council,
and Rud..
I wonder,
wat's wrong with me..
maybe i just love all of them to the max..
Attended prom,
Had stay-over after prom,
wasn't full strength,
but still,
it's so touching,
to see everyone so happy..

My dear classmates,
im so sorry,
for being so irritating at times,
for being so insensitive at times..
But i hope,
my existence in the class has in a way or another,
change the mood of the class,
change the impression of a malaysian,
change the thoughts in ur life,
change the strength of ur heart..
I kept thinking,
of all places,
i get into Singapore,
and of all JCs,
i got Nanyang,
and of all classes,
i got 0816,
and of all people,
it's none other than the 23 + 1 of u guys..
really,
i felt so lucky,
and blessed,
to really have such a class...

"People come and go in your life"
"People come into ur life for a reason.."
I hope,
i fulfilled my reason in ur life..
I dun think that this is the end,
but i cant be too optimistic to say that we will always be as close as now..
I noe this will gonna drift us away,
due to different spaces,
different lives,
different times,
different socialising circles,
and different expectation.

I just hope that we could have a yearly outing,
and really really keep this bonded class together..
I forgot since when,
i state that i have 2 families in Singapore,
1 is 31st council,
and the other one is 0816..
Thanks guys..
really,
i have not been so loved in a class,
so being pampered,
so being accepted for who i am..
Thanks a lot..
My dear class,
could we try our best to keep in touch,
and at least,
increase the half-life of the decay of our frenship?
=)
i have faith in all of us..
The ONE AND ONLY 0816..

Council,
my dear 31st..
For all the things we had gone through,
for everything that we had suffered together,
that we have laughed together..
we will miss it..
and i know we are kinda drifting away,
but yet,
we are still one,
ONE AND ONLY 31st

Rud.
my Most wonderful buddy in singapore,
my most wonderful soulmate..
Thanks for everything,
for all the strength and courage u give me,
for all the encouragement and listening ears,
for all the care and concern u gave me,
for all the love a buddy could give,
thanks..
and im so gonna miss u..