Tuesday, December 30

Tml..

Tomorrow, Tomorrow and Tomorrow..
It was like so many tomorrow since i came back Sg.
Nothing much i have done for Student Council.
Juz went for the Recee to Sentosa
It was Fun,
so many councilors gather once again,
with april and ying chen absent,
but still,
we have a mischievous boy,
named Bing,
Lilan's younger brother.
The Sentosa trip was fun,
really,
never had such huge outing since very very long ago.
i miss school trips.
i miss everyone
i miss ... u~
whoever u r reading my blog xD

i think i should blog more,
coz,
i dun think i have the time hang out in MSN telling every1 my stuff.
and,
life gonna b busy..
and,
this is the way i can update my frens xD
i noe they miss me,
and i miss u all lotz too..
I apologise,
for not calling u all,
for not talking through phone with u all,
for unable to meet u all up,
for a lot of promises i can't keep up,
but this one is for real,
friendship forever.
dun ever lose hope in our frenship,
k?
no matter how busy i am,
ask me out one day,
slap me on my face,
even if i have a girl friend,
do it in front of her,
i dun mind,
coz,
Friends Forever.
U juz need to say this while slapping my face.

I made promise with my brother also,
that we r the onli brothers,
that we wun fight over money,
over property,
over anything.
No matter wat,
we r still brothers,
forever and ever.

Tomolo,
moving to new hostel.
Wonder,
what would happen in that hostel.
Mayb, it wun be a hostel.
it's juz a place to sleep.
Nothing more than that,
not worth,
in our memory.

I've already complain so much.
I wonder,
those who r in those freaking rich family,
how would they bare this.
No aircon,
haha, those little princes and princesses
will gonna suffer ><
aihz,
wat i worried,
is not the curfew,
neither is the rules,
but i really hope,
Rudy,
will be my roommate,
juz for this year.
But anyway,
we promised,
we will be frens forever.
I juz hope,
we could stay in a same room together!!
playing games as we wish.
I miz u man, Rud!!

Come back early,
please, please,
let me be in the same room as Rudy,
Please..
Please..

Saturday, December 27

WHAT A DAY

It was a good day from the start,
how could it end this way... RETARD

Stupid PH,
Why they build this idiotic building in the first place?
Luckily i visited this stupid PRISON first,
if not,
i will be like an idiot,
moving all my stuff and not being able to check in the hostel.

Who are u to scold me?
"You dun have the right to ask"
You are juz a guard, biatch.
huh?
i dun have the right to ask?
i'm a border,
i'm juz asking when can i move in..
can i move in tml?
that's all,
u said i cannot ask anything after curfew
and u ask me to come and ask the next day?
wat if i come with all my stuffs?
will u let me in?

"You need black and white to check in"
ya, i understand u,
but wat if i dun have a place to stay?
can u juz b a bit HUMAN?
u r juz as cruel as animals.
What kind of place is it?
huh?
we r not prisoner.
we r juz student,
and u can treat us like tat?

talking a phone with my teacher mentor also cannot
and u chase me out with
" U can talk outside the gate!"
you call this a hostel?
this is like a place to keep the prisoner,
no love
no care
juz demands
and u call this a hostel?

Forget it,
tat'll be juz a place to stay.
PH?
forget it.
the ppl inside,
u'll nv be respected.
boastful as u can be..
i'm very upset with this arrangement
wat a stupid hall to stay in..

juz hope that this hall dun give me freaking troubles.
SIEN!!!!

Friday, December 12

Thanks..

Thanks for everything..
I'm really glad..
I'm very happy..

Thanks Rudy,
for being such a good buddy,
which i never ever had.
You know when to hold me back when i lose myself.
You know what to tell me when i'm down.
You are always there for me.

It's been a year,
to be accurate 9 months,
since we started to be buddies.
It was tough,
Yet, we believe in each other,
Thanks for the vacation.
Spending my holidays with u is just so fun.
Thanks for bringing so much laughter,
to my family members,
and also me.
And in Bandung,
You never forget to translate everything to me.
You were the first friend whom allows me to take a FLIGHT.

The 1st flight was scary,
yet, you were there!
The lightning,
ouch!
But the 2nd flight,
I was all alone,
in a 3-seated row.
All alone,
And i have to bite my own lips all the time.
I was scared,
but yet,
I learn to trust,
trust what you say,
and trust the pilot.
Coz, we all wanna be alive!

Anyway,
feel kinda lost and empty..
Like i've lost a limb,
and i've lost so much laughter.
You are really great, Rudy!
Thanks!!
Miss ya lotz, buddy!!
Hope to see you soon!!

Thursday, October 2

不负责任

我真的不懂要对你说些什么了。
我很失望。
你为了你长期的病,
搞得如此?
有病就大力啊?
有病就有特权?
我觉得可笑。
什么?
我想,
那个任务,
不是委派的。
然后?
你自己却参与了。
那就为它,
付出到底。
就算你不想参与的,
看见你的战友,
拼了死命,
你却活在你自己的世界?
可笑!
我对你太失望了。
你的好印象,
在我的心里已彻底,
彻底地被打碎了。

你不要参与,
就不应该接受啊!
所以,
你现在已经在里面了,
朋友们做到晚上9点,
他们都没埋怨。
你呢?
你却说要活在自己世界。
2,3点,
就已脱离他们,
让他们帮你做你应该做的东西。
你呢?
你却在房间看戏!
还嘻嘻哈哈笑得那么大声。
朋友们在忙着做,
你呢?
你在那里玩dotA?
可笑。
真的可笑。

今天,
他们到外去继续做,
你呢?
你却说要去医院。
可能去医院是借口。
听说,
你还去看戏呢!
可笑。
你自己应该反省。
管你拿了什么奖项,
可能,
全都是伪造出来的。
你,
想想吧!
病?
可能,
我们就是不懂你要什么。
你如果觉得如此是最好的,
你就作吧!
你说你找到朋友?
哈哈,
那天,
你这么生气,
他有追着你吗?
这种朋友,
你也要啊?
好笑!
可能,
你的朋友就是拿来利用罢了。
你好自为之。

Saturday, September 27

可笑。

我觉得很可笑。
哈哈……
他又写了部落各。
说自己在考试中做得很好。
好,
当然啦,
他比我们每个人多读一年。

什么?
人家去讲堂上课,
而且老师是巩固我们的写作方法,
并没所谓的泄题,
他没去,
但又说我们很不诚实,
需要老师的点子,
才能做得好,
并且因为自己能够写得很多而光荣。
也许,你真的做得很好,
但,
你不需这样自夸,
老师并没给我们任何提示,
你这么一说,
简直就在贱踏我们到讲堂的人,
你没去,
也不需那样说别人吧!
可怜,
我为你觉得可怜。
我越来越失望。
我还以为,
你会在病魔抗斗时,
变得更坚强,
但,
你没有!!!

你说你的分数肯定赢别人,
而且,人家会在拿成绩时,
大吵大闹,
为何你能够获取这种成绩。
我觉得可笑。
你说你不在意分数,
但你却要以分数赢人家。
分数真的需要在乎那么多吗?
就算你考得100分,
就算你赢了全世界的人,
那又怎样?
你的人格,
会使你的失败。
你,
会彻底的失败。

人,需要那么现实吗?
人,不能退一步吗?
人,不能够比较体谅吗?
好心,
你能够成长吗?
我对你简直就是失望到无话可说的地步。

Thursday, September 25

怕输?

读了他的部落个,
越想越不对劲。
曾经,
他说我的部落各写得很伤人。
但,
我却觉得,
他的部落各甚至有人身攻击。
现在想起来,
还蛮真可笑。
我,
之前还觉得他改变了。
觉得自己依然却没有进步。
他却变得很体贴,
很懂事。
但,
日子久了。
我却认为,
他的旧病复发。
反而,
我觉得自己没变,
也不是一件坏事。
他提到怕输。
试问有谁不怕输。
也许这里的文化,
是出了名怕输的。
但,我觉得,
他们怕输的原因很明显,
很应该。
那天,
你提到他们争先恐后。
在一个清晨,
在未开的一间东西。
试想想,
若你没做了预约,
你会否在那儿和他们一起排队呢?
我觉得你会。
因为,
你的个性,
是怕输的。
是要省时间。
我了解。
但,
你那一提起,
使我觉得你很矛盾。
想说别人,
先了解自己的情况。
可能,
我应该对我自己先说这一句,
但,
我觉得我有资格批评你。
可笑,
真的觉得很可笑。
所以,
不管怎样,
你在我心目中已经大大地打了折扣。
你,
获得了最佳的奖项,
得了许多的赞美,
不代表你很好。
所以,
你的一句,
在你的部落各,
我依然会读,
还会批评呢。
我觉得很失望,
对你的一举一动,
之前还很尊敬,
现在你却做到这样。
不怕输?
不怕输那你为何每早都要比人先到学校?
那你为何在班上要在老师所完每句话给予批评?
那你为何那么爱多取别人的注意?
那么能够演戏?
我不知道这么一说,
你又会说我说得太过分。
如果,
你有机会到此一游,
先想想你之前的人生攻击,
在生气我的部落各也不迟。
想想吧,
人生短暂。
你与你的朋友,
在考试后炫耀说题目很简单,
说你有很多时间,
说一些伤害人家的话,
你又没有反省过?
可笑,
但,
我知道我不应该批评那么多,
但我实在是忍不住,
你那么的行为,
我真的和失望!!
你,
好好地想想吧!

Tuesday, September 23

大考……

唉,
今天的数学,
完蛋了。
27分,
空着,
完了。
只会做31分。
连及格都难。
唉,
放弃了。
而且,
被完全地打败。
完完全全失去信心。
到BurgerKing吃了雪糕,
心情也好多了。
多亏哥哥,
Rudy,
伟桐,
Christabel,
他们的激励,
我才能够,
渐渐,
恢复。
伤心,
也帮不上忙,
为何不为其他的试卷,
多加努力?
所以,
我看透红尘,
为化学,
经济,
物理,
还有华语,
多多加油!!

人家说,
他们能够有多余的一个小时,
我却需要多两个小时。
人家说,
这张纸那么简单,
他要刺激的。
我却连完成都成问题。
我,
现在,
很伤心,
连自己最好的科目,
数学,
现在成了Tragic。
算了吧,
人家可能在笑我,
说我自己数学很好。
可能,我真的很烂吧。
唯有多加努力咯。
加油!!!